Red Letter Day

Yesterday was a day of testing. It tested my mental well-being, my endurance, my faith.

It started out like everyday. I got dressed and drove to work. The Neon has been shaking a bit so I've been worried about her but, I thought I need to get her balanced and rotated. I was planning to do it this weekend. Well, I got to work all dressed up and started the trek to the office. I made it to the stairwell and missed the very first step. I tumbled down the flight of stairs. Being the seasoned klutz that I am I knew to just let it happen and not fight it. I walked away without a scratch. I'm sure there will be bruises and I already ache but, I came out pretty much unscathed. Until I looked at the cute dress I had on. I had split the seam. Really split it. Not even safety pins would've saved me. So, I drove back to Benton and changed. Put on yet, another cute dress and headed back to Little Rock. I made it three exits before the Neon started shuddering (that's only word I know to describe it). I sensed a blow out was imminent so I pulled over on the side of I-30. Scary. And there I sat waiting on someone to come rescue me. I could have changed the tire I'm sure but, I wasn't wanting to ruin yet another dress for the day! Finally Ev, was able to leave and Dad was right behind him. We got it changed, got a new tire at good ole Wally World and I got to have dinner with my two favorite men. There was a bright and shiny in the day. Clearly, the disasters still haven't tested my optimism!

I survived the rest of the day and ended up having a good night with Ev. We cooked together and watched a movie. Now, I just have to mentally prepare myself for tomorrow. Dad is have back surgery. I could really use all those prayers in the morning. It's going to be so hard to let them take him back there. This is a big surgery. They are messing with important stuff! This is my Daddy. I'll need comfort, peace, and safe prayers tomorrow. I want my Dad to feel better. I need him to feel better. That way I can feel better!

Grace and Faith

Two words that will forever have completely different meanings for our small circle. They will be forever associated with God's love and hope. We may not understand all of his choices but, we have to believe that he knows what he is doing. He is guiding us down the path.

August 13, 2008 will forever be remembered. It will be the day we met Grace and Faith. It will also be the day that we learned we didn't lose Faith. We will never lose Faith. We may not be able to see or hear but, it's like the wind. We can always feel it. Faith will always be a part of us. The constant reminder of God's perfection. We will meet again.

Grace sounds like a gentle nature. When in reality it is fighting. It's of immeasurable strength and epitomizes his glory.

Grace and Faith
8/13/2008

One of those moments...

I've come to the point that the moments of anger and the desire to physically cause Michael harm are few and far between. Yet, when I see him setting a trap for someone else, they flare up. Big time. People are starting to take notice that he has set his eyes on a much much younger, innocent, naive one. She's just what he wanted me and Lee to be, only we weren't. She seems to idolize him. She thinks he will take care of her. She thinks her life just got better. Her life just veered of the road and is careening out of control. He took her to New York. NEW YORK. Can't he think of something original?

I made a list of just a few of the similarities...

. 1. He seriously took her down the history of his previous relationships.
2. TrailerPark Restraunt....hmmm, I went there. He took the drunken one there....
3. Jeff is her new gay best friend...hmmmmm...(that's odd considering I was the female version of Jeff.)
4. The Barking Dog. Maggie's favorite place to go.
5. The "famous" bridge. Do you think she knows just how famous?
6. Korea Way...I nearly choked. We took Corey there.
7. Grand Central. Not even going to touch the fact that we met there.
8. Summer's Apt....this is where I moved after Tara left and this is where Lee came to visit.
9. Black and White Cookie....Very first thing we did when I got off the plane that summer
10. Serendipity...We took mom there. We took everyone there.

He truly sucks. Truly. And S looks horrid.

Oh, my blood is boiling.

Race for the Cure 2008

Dear Friends and Family,

I recently accepted the challenge to raise funds to save a life by joining the Because I Care(TM) fundraising program for the Susan G. Komen Arkansas Race for the Cure®. I want to help in the fight against breast cancer.

One in eight women will be stricken with breast cancer in her lifetime. In Arkansas, a mammogram costs an estimated $150. By helping me raise that amount you can help me save a life. The more we raise, the more the Arkansas Affiliate can give back to fund vital breast cancer education, screening and treatment programs in our own community and support the national search for a cure. Click here to visit my personal page and pledge your support.Please join me in my effort to save a life. Your generous tax-deductible contribution will fund innovative outreach and awareness programs for medically underserved communities in Arkansas and national breast cancer research. It is faster and easier than ever to support this great cause - you can make a donation online by simply clicking on the link provided in this message. Whatever you can give will help!

I truly appreciate your support and will keep you posted on my progress.Thank you so much for your time and support in the fight against breast cancer! This year's race chair is volunteering her time in honor of her three small daughters. That is why -- This one's for the Girls!!!

Sincerely,Tara Dedmon

To sponsor my participation online, http://race.komenarkansas.org/site/TR?pg=personal&fr_id=1030&px=1271281