Frustration Overload

We are all grown adults. So why the need to play games or cause drama? Why is there the desire to include everyone in something that shouldn't even be dramatic?

When Ev and I got engaged, I instantly knew who to ask to be my flower girls. Little did I know that it would become the stressor and the source of so much drama in the planning of the wedding. From the get go its just been hard. To hard.

It would have all been much simpler to just say no, I don't like that dress. No I can't afford that dress. No I don't have the backbone to ask for my daughter. But, instead its been me saying no thats fine. I totally understand. Let me bend just a little bit more to accomodate you. And what do I get? They think I don't want the girls in the wedding. Go figure.

Well, I bent until I broke. It was never about labels or money. It was never about anything other than wanting to find a dress everyone could live with. A brown dress. Clearly that was too much. I'm fed up and frustrated. I've handed it off to Evan. I can't deal with it anymore. I don't want to. I want to be excited again. I'm focusing on other things. I'm going to back to happy land.

Catching up...

First and foremost...WE ARE GETTING MARRIED! Hallelujah! 09-19-09 is the big day. I can't freaking wait! Excited doesn't even begin to describe the constant state I'm in.

Okay sorry. Hmmm..planning a wedding. This time around its amazing. I'm spending such wonderful times with my girls. Evan and I are communicating on this entirely different level. I'm all sparkly (both inside and out!)

And while I have found my prince charming, I'm still hanging in there for my girls. I have come to have a total dislike for one JA. He put on this front of perfection and now that he actually needs to stand up and be a man, he's not. Suprise Suprise. No, instead he's going to be selfish and assign blame to everyone but, himself. Grrr...

I'm going to jump back in my sparkly world. Little does he know...I'm taking her with me. He doesn't stand a chance.